I am independent. And for that reason when I am feeling down I don't want anyone's help. I don't want to talk about it with anyone. I can handle it on my own, right?
As I sat there with a blanket over my head I felt the solitude I thought I needed. I push everyone around me away by doing that. When Shawn asks me what I am thinking about I don't even want to reply. He doesn't get it, I'm under the blanket that means don't talk to me. I know one day he will leave me because I don't allow him in. But being independent is the foundation of my being. I can't change that even if I wanted to.
