Express your feelings

My entire life I have struggled with expressing how I felt inside; it has always felt second-nature to me to keep it to myself. As you can imagine this creates huge problems. Bottling emotions up really is as bad as everyone says it is. The feelings just expand and grow. You're constantly thinking about that emotion and why you feel that way and really that does nothing but make that feeling almost unbearable. 

Expressing the emotion when you feel it allows it to pass and be resolved quickly. 

I feel enlightened. It's such a simple, obvious concept; yet so foreign to me. 

I've made a promise to myself to make a conscious effort to express my emotions as I feel them. I feel I've made my life so much more complicated than necessary because I bottle everything up, eventually I blow up. 

I believe this will relieve any tension in relationships I have with people. It will allow me to be more open with them, so we are always on the same page.  

Love for reading

It's no secret that I love reading. I've been an avid reader for about a year now, and I'm just as hooked as I was when I started. I don't really remember what got me started, but I remember just the book that did it for me, Divergent by Veronica Roth. Still one of the best books (series) I've ever read. Once I read that I was just hungry for more, specifically more teen fiction/ distopia science fiction. I think I've read every good one out there. 

I haven't gotten sick of science fictions but I was ready for a change so recently I've been reading just teen fiction. Colleen Hoover to be more specific. I read Slammed first then Point of Retreat. I thought they were both amazing. Inspiring almost. Currently I'm reading Hopeless, her stand alone novel. As of right now I'm really hoping she's working on book two! I'm also wondering where she has been all my life. 

You can friend me on Goodreads if that tickles your fancy: http://www.goodreads.com/user/show/8854618-amber

Happiness

I wish I could preach about how to find happiness in this blog, but the truth is; I'm still struggling to find it myself. I've been struggling with depression my whole life—but who isn't, right? Along the way I think I lost myself. 

Lately that's been my struggle. Who am I?

Whenever I think about who I am, I immediately go to who I used to be, and sometimes I feel that's how I am now, but I know that's not true. The last few years I have just felt like nobody. I have no life in me. 

When asked what my interests are, I come to a blank. I don't have interests. But what kind of person doesn't have interests? I often think that, and I don't know what happened. I have made attempts to have new hobbies but I get bored of it very easily, and nothing ever sticks. So, what's wrong with me?

I wish I knew the answer.

CUT THE CRAP

So that next blog post just never came... I'm really bad at blogging but I'd really like to get back into it for reasons I'll explain later in this post. 

Firstly, I am no longer in school. I knew after about a month going into Marketing wasn't the right career choice for me. Looking back, and using the knowledge I gained trying to figure out what is a good career choice for me, I've realized that it really wasn't right for me. It wouldn't have used the skills I have now, so I would have ended up failing or struggling to keep up. I do believe I have found a good option for me though. I've decided I will go to school to for a Paralegal program. It's definitely not the most exciting career out there, but I will likely succeed in it. I won't be taking the program for a year and 9 months because I will have to move away from home to take it, so I'd like to give myself adequate time to save enough money. So that's my plan as far as school/career go!

The reason I want to get back into blogging and just writing in general is to keep my brain sharp and active since I'm no longer in school. Also so I can beat my boyfriend at Scrabble.

CUT THE CRAP lifestyle!

I have a "New Year Resolution". So far I have stuck to it pretty well. Basically it's cutting out processed, refined sugar and foods with loads of chemicals. At this time, for me, cutting out the sugar is the most important thing. My father has type 2 diabetes so I am considered high risk for developing it. Cutting out those sugars will reduce my risk, and that is my ultimate goal; to not develop diabetes. 

For example, if I am hungry instead of reaching for those cookies I'll grab a piece of fruit. Yes, that fruit has sugar, but they're natural and way easier for your pancreas to handle. Or if I'm baking something that calls for sugar I'll substitute the refined white sugar for raw sugar. 

I have been making a more conscious effort to read the ingredient labels, once I see the big long list of chemicals I pretty much lose my appetite. This lifestyle definitely gets you to cook more, because then you know exactly what you're putting in your body. Your body will thank you for being kind to it. Then you will be happier. Isn't that what everyone wants? 

You may wonder what my inspiration is for this sudden change, and that would be this documentary called Hungry For Change. If you have the desire to watch it I would definitely recommend it. 

I think that will be all for today. Please leave me a comment if you have decided to try this lifestyle. I'd love to hear your story and continue giving tips on how to make the change.

Hello everyone!

I'm writing you from my school today. I have an hour break before my next class. 

Today has been just okay. So far I have had Communications and Accounting and I have Economics next. 

I'm having to take 7 classes this semester and it is very stressful, let me tell you!

Since day 1 there has always been something due in all the classes, it's a little outrageous. There's simply not enough time to do everything. I've noticed that the subject I've been neglecting is Math. Specifically the assigned homework that isn't for marks. I know that they would be beneficial to do but I would rather do the work that I am getting credit for. 

Working while in school is one of the hardest things to do, but it's almost necessary with tuition, gas, insurance, etc. It sucks. Yet, here I am doing this instead of work that needs to be done. Oh well. Everyone needs some down time. I suppose this and reading would be mine. 

I'm currently reading Uglies by Scott Westerfeld, so far it's really slow, but I love the idea of the story so I'm hoping it picks up. I'm only on page 50 so it still deserves a fair chance. Lately I've been returning most of the books I take out from the library because they have not been grabbing my attention. I hope this isn't another of them. I did recently purchase two books that I will read after Uglies is due back. I bought Tilt by Ellen Hopkins (love her!) and Beneath the Glitter by Elle and Blair Fowler. I'm looking forward to reading both. 

Well I think that's all for today, talk to you in my next post!

Get to know me

Hello anyone interested in knowing anything about me. 

I am 20 years old. I'm studying Marketing at Mohawk College. And I have no previous knowledge to marketing but so far I'm loving my classes. I work part-time at Quiznos Subs to support the costs of driving to school and tuition. My boyfriend, Shawn, is studying Advertising at Mohawk College, so we are getting into a very similar field. 

I have a old blog that you've probably never seen but I decided to make a new account because there is some older, immature posts on that account. 

This blog will mainly be about my life, anything I find interesting, possibly cooking blogs, photography. We'll see. 

Speaking of interests, I have been interested in photography pretty much my whole life. So much so that I took Photography at Fanshawe College last year. In the end I did not like the program, the professors, or the other students. It wasn't the right career choice for me so I took a few months to figure out what I wanted to do for the rest of my life. I found it by taking General Business at Mohawk College. I also enjoy baking, but I hardly have the time for it anymore with school and work. I really enjoy reading as well. I even had a book review blog going for a while but I didn't really enjoy that. 

If you have any questions about me or anything really, leave a comment below and I'll respond in my next post (as long as it's an appropriate question).

Talk to you soon!